It all starts when you are pregnant and the baby is laying on or kicking your bladder. If you are not up every hour using the restroom, you are turning over (if you can actually manage to turn over) because your hips are expanding and aching. So the last couple or more months of pregnancy...sleep is already a distant memory. It is a great way for God to prepare you for the baby's arrival! I looked back in my log and noticed I got 4 hours total the last 3 nights before Luke arrived. Yes, 4! Now 10 1/2 months later, I am still not sleeping. I have gone over 30 different reasons why Luke still sleeps like newborn. I've read articles, I've listened to advice, and I've tried many, many things. A few times in Luke's life, he has only woken up once. Right before he got the cold he has now, he did it two days in a row...then got a cold from me that I got from John. Before that was on vacation but that was only because he was extremely exhausted from traveling all day and getting to bed hours late. Before that was a few days before thanksgiving...and then he got a cold at thanksgiving. Before that it was in Mesquite in September. Then we came home, kept him in the pack-n-play thinking he liked it instead of his crib...didn't work. And he only did it a couple other times before Sept.
Q: Why do I remember those cherished nights?
A: The answer is the same...10...1215...330...545...7...830
Q:Why do I lay in bed for up to 2 hours trying to fall asleep?
A: 10...1215...330...545...7...830
Q: Why have I forgotten how to sleep?
A:10...1215...330...545...7...830
Q: Why does it take me 2 to 3 different times in the night to get 4 or 5 hours of sleep over the last year?
A:10...1215...330...545...7...830
Q: Why can I not shut my brain off knowing the world will revolve without me awake?
A:10...1215...330...545...7...830
Q: Why do I eat at least once and often twice in the middle of the night?
A:10...1215...330...545...7...830
Q: Why do I hear phantom cries when Luke is actually sleeping?
A:10...1215...330...545...7...830
Q:How can I walk through the dark house at night and not bump into any toys?
A:10...1215...330...545...7...830
Q: Why do I wonder if he is alive and go in and check on him when he sleeps longer than 5 hours?
A:10...1215...330...545...7...830
Q: Why do I like to stay away from anyone who is sick?
A:10...1215...330...545...7...830
Q: How have I survived 10...1215...330...545...7...830?
A: Only by God's grace! He is the Sustainer! Praise God for being in control and letting me lean on Him! Only by Him can anyone survive a year like this!
OK, so Luke doesn't sleep this bad every night...but almost! He typically sleeps 4 or 5 hours at the beginning of the night...which doesn't do me any good unless I went to bed at 8pm. Which leaves me NO time with John or to do anything without one of my boys present in a 24 hours period. Like read the Bible, take a shower...something for me. I've even tried it and cannot fall asleep before 10 or 1030....why? 10...1215...330...545...7...830. Then he wakes up every 2, 3, or 4 hours. So, I am at a loss. Lately, I have changed my prayers from 'Lord, teach Luke to fall asleep on his own, back alseep on his own when he doesn't need to eat, teach him to turn around in his bed when he hits the end instead of standing up, and comfort him'....to 'Lord, work a miracle in his life.' I believe it would be nothing short of that for him to sleep well! Pray with me please!
Thank you all for reading. Sometimes you just have to share your experiences. I am sure you can agree with me that it is a miracle that God has sustained me and kept me sane with little sleep. To God be the glory!
1 comment:
Definitely praying for you! You need a little momma vacation so you can sleep! I would not be able to function like that so God definitely knows you can handle it!
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